I can say that one of the greatest things that has come out of the darkness that God delivered me from is that I have learned that I can trust Jesus.
The closer I get to HIM the closer HE gets to me. And He is a good shepherd and my ADONAI (My "Master'' or "Lord".)
He is also my champion Emmanuel (God With ME)! And I love that I can go to HIM 24/7 with anything and I never have to worry about HIM hurting me or disappointing me. Hallelujah!